You can always tell when some one is avoiding you. Weather they speak to you or not. Or if you have had a difference of opinion or had an argument with them or someone they know. Well thats what I can see and feel when I am talking about a certain someone. I will not name them as it not right to but for sake of argument i shall call this person Sam. Now I choose this name as it can be male or femail, but in this what I am wrting now is more to do with a woman. I never really get on well with people of the same sex as myself. Maybe cos I know how bad us women can be or can get but its more to do with trust. I tend to not trust them and I will or may say about this some other time. At the moment this is not that time. Sorry. Anyways back to what i was saying.
Well for the last few days Sam has been going off facebook when i do and when i go off Sam goes back on. Ok i may be slightly paranoid here but bear with me a second and I will explain further. A few weeks ago I had an argument with a close friend of mine and we have since made up and each said sorry. Even though I did mean every word of it. Sometimes better out than in and that helped I think. Anyways since we was not speaking we didn’t speak or communicate on facebook like we do everyday. (this person is not part of my family) so as we was not speaking Sam’s partner decided to not speak to me which is fine and everything not that i get on with him and I think he is a bit of a knob head at times. Anyway since we have now made up and started to speak again even though it feels a little bit fake more there side than mine but still anyways, he has started to avoide me and not speak to me at all. We did talk on and off about a few things and as she is my friends partner I was friendly and nice as I am with most people I meet or come across. You see they are making it way to obvious that they are doing it as even when I spoken on the phone there no feeling like there was. But anyways what is bugging me about it is they know I can tell and how it looks and His partner Sam will start to notice at some point and I know that once they notice they will stop but with him i don’t think he will stop you see,. I know he has some sort of deep rooted feeling about me and no i don’t mean sexually or anything like that more of i am a problem and I don’t go away and i help out with Sam as much as i can. Lend money when She is short or even when he is short but it just makes me so mad and annoyed that they can be so bloody petty about it all. It was not long ago that I had a big fall out with my hubby’s dad but we are speaking and everything but even there is something deep rooted about how he truly feels about me and everything to say the things he did said that and speaks volumes and this is why I know that Sam’s partner is now avoiding me there is always something there when they come out with things you know they would never say. (not unless they was a good friend anyways) and I know that Sam dont really care about me to be honest and in a way i dont think i do with her either. thats why i can feel that something somewere is wrong and i will end up finding out and that will probly push me away and this would make me decide that yes enough is enough and i am not going to put up with it and move on,. and i dont think they would belive me or it until i did and i shall tell you that i would do it and move on as it will be it and it will push me that far that i no longer care and will stop doing everything i do for them. weather it money or just been there to chat cos it not fair on me, my hubby when i take it out on him when it not his fault and it not fair on them and i wont put myself in that place anymore and do what is right and move. I already have plans to move back North again anyways and i would probley end up moving back there and maybe not in Scarborough were people will think maybe York or Hull but i dont think Scarborough or Filey or any small place. Hey trust me I hate Gloucester but i dont hate it enough to move that close to scarborough as i would feel suffocated so i would compromise on that little bit and York aint to bad anyways.
Anyways i think that is enough of me ramberling on for now and will leave you. If your confused after reading this then hey so am i and i am the one writing it but the way my head works at times its a wonder i know how to breath or get dressed or even know how to get out bed in the mornings (well afternoons) but thats me and my head and i dont think that will stop any time soon,. Hey let me know if it does when i do more and more of these little snippet of things i write about you can let me know about it lol anyways take care everyone and i will write again soon
Love Cat xxx
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